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Hey everyone! Hi followers that I do not know what so ever. I think you should all un-follow me. Since I won’t be updating this anymore..

This will be my last post.

I’ve been tired. Really tired. So finally it hit me. I can barely even move like active. It is time for me. I am scared to be honest. Really scared. I feel so lonely even when I know there is people there for me.

Life has been complicated for me ever since I was small. Probably more worse then yours and probably not. I am tired. My days are now numbered. Finally..

It’s not easy. [This is for people that understand what I am going through.]


Jenny: Hey buddy! I miss you.. So MUCH! <3 :D
I want to tell you that. You have been the best thing that happened to me. If it weren’t for you. I wouldn’t be here seeing the brighter side of life. I wanted to go rock climbing with you! D: So I can show you.. That you are the most awesome person there is. You are a sister to me. I love you so much! I hope to see you at my last moment. I will wait for you.. And I will tell you everything there. ;)

Kevin: Yo! What’s up my nigguh! Haha. :)
You are one of the strangest person I met. You are stubborn, but understand where I stand. Haha. You were very nice and caring to me, even though you don’t know me well. O_O”.. Sweet of you. ;) I’ve always want to meet you in person! But I can’t because of the shit that has been happening to me everyday. You know what I mean? Since.. You won’t be able to see me at my last moment.. So I will tell you here. :D “You have been a good friend and a bitchy friend also. But mostly I am at fault. Haha. I hope one day we will meet. And I hope you and my sister JenJen make it through a life time. I will watch over ya’ll. You hear me? Haha. You are a cool dude overall. Don’t do anything stupid. Keep living to the fullest ya’ hear? Even if its bumpy keep going. Forget the shit. And be strong. Don’t be a pussy! Haha. I thought you were a dick. Get it? Haha. I am glad we were able to talk and meet. In a way”

Justin: … My goodness.. I don’t know how much I can type for you…
I miss you every second.. I miss every kiss… I miss every fights… I miss every hugs.. I miss everything that happened for us.. I know you did many bad things. But baby.. I still love you. I wish we can make it a life time. I really do. I bet we still can, but I don’t want you to keep onto me. Keep going on. Start a new adventure. But this time… Learn from what you did and just.. Start anew. :)
I cried everytime just by thinking.. You won’t be next to me anymore.. I can’t even hold you anymore is even worse.. I love those hugs you give.. The one you hug me really tightly like the world is locked and it’s just me and you. And you keeping me safe in your arms. I love that. I miss our little plays where we just pretend like we hate each other, but really deep inside we just want to shout out how much we love each other. <3 Baby.. I love you. So So MUCH!
I will never forget you and I will never forget our memories. I hope you won’t forget me. [You better not! D:] Haha. I love you Justin. So much!

You are the best boyfriend I ever had! We weren’t perfect.. But just having you…  Just makes EVERYTHING perfect. You may not have what I want. BUT you have EVERYTHING I NEED. My needs are basically my wants but not like those “I want those shoes!” But those ” I want you in my life forever you are everything I have ever ask for.”  I will tell you the rest at the last moment.. I will wait for you. Bye baby.. :)


For those that actually read the whole thing. WOW! O_O”. But aw. :)
Thanks for caring to read.

Spent the anniversary with my buddy and my boyfriend [of course].

We went skating,fishing,bowling,tennis, and then we went to go eat at a restaraunt.

It was hella fun!

Skating- HAHA! My boyfriend and me were a major FAIL. We didn’t know how to skate. Haha! So we went over to Jenny and we dragged her along with us. XD
We were all laughing. Love skating with everyone! <3 

Fishing- We made it up. We wanted to go fishing but we couldn’t so we decided to pretend like we are fishes. Haha. One person be a fishermen, and the others be a fish. :D
{The fishermen have to be in blind folds and the fishes yell out and see if he can catch us.}
Haha. We made my boyfriend get hit by the tree. ;) We are soo good. <3 

Bowling- MY GOODNESS! Funny as hell! I couldn’t hold the fucking ball properly. So my boyfriend came over to help. :) I felt bad for Jenny because her boyfriend wasn’t there. :( .. But anyways.. the entire time I was bowling.. I only strike ONCE! D:<

Tennis- Fail… My boyfriend was the ball boy. ;) Me and Jenny was the only ones playing. XD

Outing/Eating- FUN FUN FUN! We were racing with our drinks. ;) 


Later on after the dinner. Jenny had to go. So left with me and my boyfriend. We went for a little walk and it was heaven. <3 The sky was chilly and everything was just perfect. :) 

FUCKING AWESOME DAY! ;D  

I love you! <3

Babe. I know you doubt my feelings sometimes.
[You smell good whenever I sit next to you. Hahaha.]



You don’t like to see me with different girl. I don’t like to see you with a different guy. Seeing you with a different nigguh will piss the fuck out of me. I wouldn’t feel like myself. The world and my life will feel more like shit. I wouldn’t find anything good about it anymore. Personally for me. I don’t want to loose you. You are the best thing that happened to me. Even though we had our break-ups, but we always somehow get back with each other. I personally feel like shit whenever I break-up with you. We boys feel like shit to when we break-up with someone special to us. I don’t know why I would break-up with you… I was stupid. I was still wanting more in my life. I didn’t realize it then, but now I do. I don’t want to loose you again. I know I haven’t say I love you often, but I want you to know. I DO LOVE YOU SO MUCH. You may be stupid and retarded sometimes, but that is the best thing about you. You are different from other girls. You look beautiful with and without make-up. I love everything about you. Even when we did break-up for awhile and didn’t talk for awhile also. But you were still there for me even though I didn’t see it. I am glad I see it now. It must be hard for you to go through that bullshit I put you through. I am sorry. I feel like shit right now just by thinking about it. We will make it through babe. Even when things don’t go right or the same anymore, we will make through this bullshit together.

I love you girlfriend. ;)

-Seriously.. I don’t like it when boys act mushy and shit with you. I will beat the fuck out of that person. I get jealous to babe.

Imagine this.

You broke up with your boyfriend/girlfriend, and you see them with a new boy/girl. Holding hands in the hallways. Kissing. Smiling. Laughing.

What do you think? It’s hell right? Yes. 
I can’t imagine my boyfriend being with anyone else. Even if that did happened. I don’t think I can survive. I will be living in hell. My heart will be in more scars, then it already is. All the memories will flood back in my mind, and I will get stab even more inside. I will sit at home crying my eyes out, because it hurts so much to see him being with another girl.

That’s why whenever me and my boyfriend is going through somethings. I want to try my hardest to fix whatever is wrong. I don’t want to loose him. I want us to make this relationship good, with no problems or stops. Making it through even through the roughest part. Is the greatest accomplishment, because I know that we can make it through without giving up. But trying hard for OUR sake.

I love you boyfriend. :)